Monday, November 7, 2011

One Day Can Change a Life

Its amazing how fast things can change.
Its almost way to strange.
One day you can be on top of it all.
The next in total free fall.

People come and people leave.
Just have to know who to believe.
The right ones will always stay
Never to let you stray.

Its amazing how one day can change a life.
A new day will bring new strife.
You just have to try to see the light.
And never give up without a fight.

Always trying to stay ahead.
Without having to to worry and dread.
Know that you will always be in my heart
Whether together or apart.

I wish you all the luck when your changes come.
Please always remember where you came from.

The one who this is about will never see my words.
But your pain still pierces me like a million swords.
I am finally ending this fight.
Good luck in life and good night

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

The more things change the more they stay the same

Today facebook changed again and like usual people have already started to say how much they hate the new facebook. Just like they did when it changed the last 100 times.  You know normally the changes actually turn out to be good things the first drastic change facebook made was opening it up to non college students and most of the people who might read this wouldnt have even been allowed onto facebook.  Just when everyone will start to accept the changes facebook will ultimately change yet again and the cycle of people bitching will continue.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

No Intro Needed

Sitting in Ms. Schaeffers computer programming class learning about how to program in basic.  Thats where I was when I first learned about the WTC attacks.  It was fourth period and as I went to 5th period Mr. Vergari's class I was wondering if we were going to get out of school early, looking back on it I am a bit ashamed thats what was going through my head, as we learned we were going home from school I was asked to play hockey later that day.  I was so excited to play hockey for the rest of the day, when I got home I had learned about the 3rd building in the WTC complex to go down.  I had no idea how that one day those 4 planes would change the rest of my and our lives forever.  Now ten years later I wonder when will it happen again if it will happen again, in those ten years yes we found and killed both bin laden and saddam, but it will never be over I fear.  I can only hope that some day my children will look back at Sept 11th and never have to go through a similar tragedy, much like I am sure my grandparents hoped that their children would never have to go through another Pearl Harbor.  I have never been the most patrotic of people and those of you who know my stance on the term hero being thrown around will be suprised by this but those fire fighters who looked up at buildings that had just been hit and knew they were going to go down, but still went into that building are heros.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Maybe we can have nice things

Finally I have a laptop again, I had forgotten how nice it is to be able to sit down somewhere and type.  I havent had a true laptop in probably 2 years because of the horrible battery life that I had and then the monitor went out so I was confined to any space with a plug in for my big desktop monitor.

I have been thinking a lot lately about the things I have done in the past and wondered what kind of person I would be if I had not done certain things, such as what would I be like if me and Ashleigh never would have split, what if I never joined Tau Kappa Epsilon.  What if I just accepted the answers I was given and never questioned anything.  I think I would be a vastly different person, maybe for better but maybe for the worst but at the end of the day I am happy with who I am now and with the choices that I have made in the past and that is all that matters at the end of the day.

Oh and finally I had a friend read this the other day who was upset because she hadnt been mentioned yet, so hi jackie now your mentioned dont complain again haha.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

This is why we cant have nice things

In true clumsey Eli fasion as soon as I get a nice thing another one of my nice things breaks.  No more than 2 hours after activating my new phone I drop my iPod touch and the screen cracked, luckly it was just the outer screen and the touch screen still works and I can still use the iPod.

I am actually writting this on a computer for the first time since the very first blog because Heather was kind enough to let me use hers hopefully I will be getting a computer soon, I should be able to in about 3 weeks, and I am sure that as soon as I get a new computer my iPod will break because for some reason I cant have more than one nice thing at a time.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Shake shake shake

The great quake of 2011. So I guess the quake was felt in little ole vandergrift Pennsylvania but alas I did not get to feel it but then again it is just a little shaking I guess. Still have yet to feel an earthquake that wasn't made artificially by the science center. 
One of the best things in sports is the little league world series and this year a team from about thirty minutes away from Williamsport is there and as of now after playing 4 games has played in front of over 126,000 people which is amazing. The kids have played great ball too. I couldn't imagine being 12 and having that kinda pressure on me. Another great moment of the llws was the team from Aruba being down by 20 and their left fielder instead of being pissed he is out there dancing. Little league is truly for the love of he game. 

I haven't been updating this as of late due to being tired at night and going to bed before midnight since I've started working I hope to update it more often in the coming days. Also if your one of the people following the blog let me know who ya are I'm curious who reads this.

Finally one of my brothers has a blog he wanted me to whore out. He is one of the most brutal honest funny and smart people I know so check out the godfathers blog
http://snarkandcircumstance.wordpress.com/

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The social network

Why do people feel the need to have to know everything about others?  Even going as far as to betray trust by breaking into peoples facebook and email accounts and going through peoples texts and calls on their phones. Now full disclosure I have done it once or twice but it did confirm my hunch that I was being cheated on. That still doesn't make it right though. I do know a lot of peoples passwords and I will never betray their trust as I have given out my passwords and trusted those people not to mess with my stuff. 
I chose this because a friend of mine was hacked this week and lost all of their friends on facebook which I know with just over 300 friends I'd never remember all of them much less some people who have way more. I hope she got them all back and doesn't have anymore problems. So I guess the point of this is be careful on who you trust no matter what people may still screw you over. 

Monday, August 8, 2011

Biscuits n gravy

Today I probably played some of the worst hockey I've ever played and it got me thinking about what I've done in my life when bad things have happened and if things would've been different if I wouldn't have made the same decisions. For example if I'd have just accepted the ashleigh thing would we have ever spoken instead of fighting for the fact that I was right. This kinda relates to am earlier blog saying I wouldn't change anything when in all honesty I would like the past to be a bit different. What if I didn't quit baseball when I snapped my wrist. What if I gave into temptations. A very important person told me once you can't live your life by what ifs or it'll drive you nuts and when I use to I did now I just enjoy going with the flow and hope that the best is yet to come. 

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Do you believe magic

Today was Sidney Crosbys 24th birthday in his life so far he has gotten to the pinnacle of his profession both in his league and globally. Also he has more fans than most people will ever see. More people care about his head than probably know that the USAs credit rating just got lowered to AA+. Kinda makes you think differently about your own life. With that said I am happy that I am not a mega star nor do I ever wanna be one. I know who my friends are and don't need yes men. I can walk down a street and have anonymity which is priceless. I was uncomfortable when people would see me in edinboro and know me as the tke bartender and as nothing else. I felt bad for not knowing them due to being so busy as the bartender. In life to me at least it's not about the amount of people around you but the quality of the people you surround yourself with. 

On a totally unrelated note today I was at the golf course and saw a decapitated duck head. Definitely not something I wanted to see at 830 am. 

Also thank you for the positive comments I have been receiving for you guys it does mean a lot to me. If you guys wanna hear my views on anything specific let me know and I'll write about it. 

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Nana's a cheating whore

If I could write a letter to myself when I was ten it would be blank. Because half the fun of life is making those mistakes and learning from them. I never had the easiest life but know that my past experiences have made me into the guy I am today. Sometimes when you get knocked on your ass you just have to sit up and say well that sucked so let's try something new so I don't feel it again. 
Now I started this blog in part because of a dream I had where I was a little late with something and I missed out on something great if ya want the details to the dream text me probably won't tell you who it was about by if ya know me you'd figure it out. So i know i wont tell people things directly and i want people to know whats in my head on things so maybe those people who i dont have the courage to tell things to will read and know. I also want to be heard by a lot of people and hopefully you guys enjoy what I say most have from what I've been told so thanks for reading. 

Friday, August 5, 2011

Quit playin games with my heart

Long day today not going to put much. Idlewild was fun with Ava today she loved everything and already wants to go back and I hope we do sooner rather than later but that's all for tonight I'm exhausted.
Have a great night and a better tommorrow

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Ring of fire

Today for the first time in a long time I spent most of the day outside without sunscreen on and let me say this I won't make that mistake again. 

As I type this I still am thinking about the pirates blowing another lead. The last time the pirates had a winning season was 92 yes 19 years ago. Now let's put this in perspective Clinton was just about to win his first presidential election. Beauty and the beast was still two years away. Sidney Crosby was only five and the steelers were in season one of the bill cowher era. This team can't lose forever let's just hope it will end soon. 

Get to take my niece to idlewild tomorrow. I can't wait she will have a great time I hope. As for me personally itll be the first time I've been to a Pennsylvania amusement park in almost ten years unless you count sandcastle which to me is a water park. That's all for now as always have a great night and even better tomorrow. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

You're gunna die clown

I have been told by people who have been reading these that it's showing a more serious side of me which I like. I dont always want to be known as this funny guy who can't be serious. 

Onto the topic du jour. To a lot of people money is the root of happiness. Now while I do think money is important I would take less money to be happier than a rich person who is miserable. Maybe that's because I grew up not happy a lot of the time or with money or maybe because I'm nuts who knows. My dream in life is to be able to provide for my family without having to live paycheck to paycheck. 

As a follow up to last nights entry the names I used are not the only friends I have just the ones that popped into my head while I was typing. 

Hope you all have a wonderful night and better morning. 

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Save Tonight

So I was thinking today about how the people you think will be in your life forever very rarely are. Entering jr high I thought that my best friends forever would be Josh Danny and Chris. After high school I thought Chris Josh and Ashleigh. Josh still remains I talk to him daily Chris is still a great friend and I will get to ashleigh later. Going into college Josh and Ashleigh remained. Then I met some of the most Important people in my life John and shana. Ashleigh faded away and those two people stuck and we added this wonderful girl named Kim. For the first time in my life I had a Cree of friends who did a ton together. But like all good things it ended we all did stupid things to each other but today I know they are all hands down great friends. I hope i have ment as much to the people mentioned here as you have to me.  Who knows who will be my friends in ten years but I hope all of the people mentioned in this are there. 

Ever feel like things just don't wanna go your way. I did today some things just didn't go the easy way I thought they would but I guess if things always went your way life wouldn't be interesting. 

Hope you all are enjoying these.

Monday, August 1, 2011

The cult of personality

As luck would have it right after I decide to have a blog my computer decides to screw up again yippee. 
Anyway I was thinking a lot today about where I have been and where I wanna go. In my 26 years on earth I have gone from wanting to be a spartan to being a fighting scot. From wanting to be a game shoe host to having a business degree. Wants and dreams but I hope I never do. I've been the ass before that people wanted to be with but it wasn't me. Ok off that soapbox. 
Just was talking to a friend and realized how little actual friends I have and how many acquaintances I have. It's kinda depressing but life is like that sometimes. I hope when I return to the boro I can see everyone I want to and finally make the dinner I promised someone a few years ago :)
That's all for tonight hope all your dreams are sweet and all your days are wonderful. 

Eli

I wonder if you know I am there

Hello there I have decided to have this as a place to put my thoughts on stuff so here goes.  Sometimes I wonder if there is someone out there thinking the same things i am at the same time i am.  I hope so because it is comforting knowing that there is someone else out there struggling through the maze we call life.

So the title to this post is from a song (bonus points to anyone who knows what the song is and who sings it without looking it up on google.) Well the next line is "If you looked in my eyes Would you see what's inside? Would you even care?"  This is directed at one or a few people I feel like sometimes people just look past me and never look towards me its hard to explain but if you really know me you probably know what I mean. Those people I havent spoken to as much as I wish I had and if you think your one of them text me.   

With the first of what will hopefully become a somewhat daily thing I would like to thank some people, I wont name everyone but there are a few I wanna point out.

My TKE bros for always being there even though we may choke each other fight with each other and just hate each other at times I know that you will always have my back and I yours.

Goomba for walking out of class and driving me 2 hrs to the wreck I walked into and for helping me out that day.

Pedro and Kevin for always being there to talk to and cheer me up no matter what is bugging me.  I hope we are still on for the brotrip of a lifetime in April.

My 2 nitch's Sharon and Kayla you 2 are nuts I just wanted to put that in public record somewhere and I wouldnt want it any other way you 2 are great.

And finally Shana you were there for me during the single hardest time of my life.  It ment and still does mean way more to me than I can ever actually say for only knowing me for less than a month you helped me and no matter how much we argue or fight or what not you will always mean a lot to me for that thank you from the bottom of my heart.

As I leave this for people to dissect I hope that you enjoy the random thoughts in my head and tell me what I should talk about more and what I should just keep in my head.